sometimes i break down. and i can't help it. my body feels weak and i cry little puddles of tears. it usually isn't for any particular reason. its just that my heart and mind grow weary of having to stay strong. and as a result my emotions cant help but pour out of me in the form of tears.
tonight in the middle of making dinner my body collapsed (not that real collapse, but that overwhelming feeling of weakness) and i found myself sitting on the floor crying. in the middle of the kitchen. at 9:45. on a friday night in my pj's. repeatedly asking mysef "what am i doing here."
it was a moment of weakness. i just let it happen.
i let myself cry.
and i accepted that for that moment that i can't be strong all the time.
