deep limbic system

from my walk to the temple a while back. i love that i dont even have to edit (cuz i dont know how).

i'm reading a really interesting book. i would love to tell you everything about it but then i'd be summarizing the whole book and i would just suggest reading it. its called 'change your brain, change your life'

heres what i learned....the deep limbic system is a spot right in the middle of your brain the size of a walnut. its responsible for the emotional tone of the mind, modulating motivation, controlling appetite and sleep cycles, and promoting bonding. its a pretty powerful little thing. if its overworked it can accentuate any of the above mentioned things. such as moodiness, irritability, depression, increases negative thinking, negative perception of events, decreased motivation, flood of negative emotions, appetite and sleep problems and social isolation. so basically this is a pretty big influencer in lucy's brain considering im good at all of the above. haha.

the book mentions some reasons why this part of the brain would work harder than necessary. the first reason is bonding disruption. "many who experience grief say the pain actually feels physical. this sensation is not imaginary. grief often activates the pain centers in the brain, which are housed near the deep limbic system." so when i feel my body may collapse in times of 'increased negative feeling' im most likely not making it up. and for some reason thats comforting. losing your love "can be extraordinarily painful because the deep limbic connection has been broken. that person has become part of the chemical bond of that part of the brain, and it takes time for that bond to dissolve. your deep limbic system misses the person's touch, voice, and smell." and relationships that were more difficult tend to make it worse because those things arent/wont be resolved.

....am i talking too much? probably. i just find all of this stuff so interesting. but at least when i feel like my body may just quit on me....i know why.

i dont really know how to follow all of this up. i just felt like sharing.

i wish i could have a camera with me at all times. that way i could stop whatever i was doing whenever i wanted and magically be in the best spot to take a picture of the things around me. heavenly father created such a beautiful place for me! on my drive home tonight above the mountains was a raincloud. because it was only cloudy in this one place and the sun was setting on the opposite side of the sky it created quite the scene. i wish i could have documented it so i could feel the same way i did marveling at it on my drive home.

i returned to the olive garden for dinner tonight with des. it was nice to have someone to talk about my day with. i miss that.....

im done with today....bed please.